Appreciate The Ones You Love

I came back from Ampang.

Been away. Why?

Because I send off my grandfather.

He's been staying strong until it's time for him to go.

The very last time that I saw him.

The things I said to him with love from my heart.

I shed tears.

Like Hong Seng said,

Appreciate the ones you love.

Tell them that you care and love them before they are gone.

Never know when they are gone.

We go through the the stages of young, old, sick, and death.

There is no such thing as drinking a potion for eternal youth.

As long as we stay happy until the end.

Even though at times we had quarrels with our families, but still we got to appreciate them for raising and guiding us from young till it's our time to give them back in return.

Grandfather, I feel happy when you have the smile on your face even when you are enjoying your favorite food. I feel happy when you are with us as a family. I feel happy when you laugh a bit. Grandfather, even though you are gone, you are always be in our hearts.

-lu yin-

Struggling At Times Like This

This few weeks. Many things that happen.

I'm praying and chanting hard.

I'm holding on.

I lost someone important to me.

The person that I saw last Sunday.

This whole day. I'm crying in tears.

My heart is aching and trying to heal.

-lu yin-

Change Ourselves

There's one thing I learn throughout my whole life. That is changing your own self instead change others. Sometimes we blame people for the mistakes that happen, but what about looking at ourselves. Did we learn the mistakes that we done? If we blame others, then things would go crazy.

For me, I admit. Sometimes, I jump into conclusions without take a look at myself of what I done. As time goes by, clearing my thoughts and encouragement by my friends and family. There's the part that I miss - look into myself.

In reality, when dealing with people with different opinions, attitudes, and others, we tend to get stress out or maybe sour towards the person. But then again, people keep telling me this. See yourself. What are the mistakes and what is not right in the process. Think how to fix and deal with it. Then, the people around you would accept.

If not, then just be yourself but not in a bad way that give the negative energy to others. That time I did. I admit. The fact that I feel the hatred inside of me. The fact sometimes I hate myself. I admit life is not like a wonderland. But...I'm living a life that I'm happy with it and dealing with whatever crazy things that happens right in front of me.

Well, all I could say is. I look into myself. I still have the anger and hatred within me that I control. I'm changing as time goes by maybe you would think that I'm not up to the standard you may think but I'm growing. Growing strong and faith within me.

I can say this important thing is that : change ourselves before change others

-lu yin-

Michael Jackson - This Is It

This is the very latest single of Michael Jackson - "This Is It".

It's the soundtrack for the movie "This Is It".

Can't wait to watch that movie.

Here's the lyric:

This is it, Here I stand;

I’m the light of the world

I feel grand;

And this love, I can feel;

And I know, Yes for sure

It is real;

And it feels as though I’ve seen your face a thousand times

And you said you really know me, yourself

And I know that you have got addicted with you eyes

But you say you’re gonna leave it for yourself

Oh

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn’t my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

Come on please just understand

This is it

Like I said

I’m a light of your world

run away

we can feel

This is real

Every time I’m in love yeah I feel

And I feel as though I’ve known you since a thousand years

And you tell me that you’ve seen my face before

And you said to me that you don’t want me hanging around

many times wanna do it here before

Oh yeah

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn’t my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

Come on please understand

This is it

I can feel

I’m the light of the world

This is real

feel my song

we can say

And I tell you feel that way

And it feels as though I’ve known you for a thousand years

And you said you saw my face yourself

And you said want to go with you all the while

And I know that it’s really for myself

Oh yeah

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn’t my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

Come on please dear understand

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn’t my plan

I never thought that I would be your lover

Come on dear please understand

Oh yeah

I never heard a single word about you

Falling in love wasn’t my plan

Enjoy. Loving this song.

Michael Jackson will always be in our hearts. The legend of the King of Pop.

-lu yin-

I....

I clear my thoughts.

I control my moods.

I try to cool myself down.

I hear people who are close to me giving me advices.

I realize and understand.

There are times when got setbacks that I got to deal.

There are times I have to face it.

There is no escape.

I made my vows and I won't break them.

Look forward and move on.

Now, I am challenging myself for my final year.

I tell myself don't give up.

Thanks to the people who gave me some advice and encouragement when I'm totally really moody for almost a week.

Also, I find it touching after watching this video.

Truly an inspirational video that make me realize. Also, very touching that let me shed tears.

Nick Vujicic said : "If I fail, I try again, again, and again..." "It matters how you are going to finish." "Are you going to finish STRONG?"

These words really hit me especially he said: "I love living life. I am happy."

Even though he has no arms and limbs, he still keeps going and try again if he fails.

Clearing my thoughts and make myself understand the situations that I'm facing.

So, if I failed, I'm going to try again and again until I reach my goal.

-lu yin-

Tired and Weak

k. I'm at swc room. Typing out a post with my phone.

Feel bored and mood.

Too tired to speak and think. For now, I'm just too weak to move.

All I could think of is just be at my own space. Thoughts an mind keep processing non-stop.

I'm confuse at the moment. I ask myself how long I could just deal with the situation that I'm facing. Maybe a week or two perhaps.

I stop right here. Need to rest my mind. Cannot stand already.

-lu yin-

Feel Upset

Just now check my results. The rest are ok (As and Bs) but....Well. I failed 1 subject which is surprised. C-?!?! I keep asking myself why. Went to SSH office saw one of my lecturer. I asked him why I failed that paper. He said because I answered the one of the questions wrongly that leads to no marks for that question.

......

I feel sad and moody. This paper I can only take next semester which is during the E-learning.

.....

That time I helped out with the preparation for the public talk which is tomorrow. While I was doing, I was moody.

Haihz, this is like the 2nd time during my final year. One particular subject I failed. Like the time during my Diploma, I failed translation.

......

I have the upset and nervous within me which I feel...I don't know...maybe my own space to be alone for a while or maybe longer.

I need to bear with it. Next semester take that paper seems long between now and next semester. My heart keeps pounding. My mind is going crazy.

Even the paper is almost like less than a month before going off to UK. Feel the tension. I admit that I'm scared. Scared that what may happen if I failed again this paper. Scared that I could not graduate. Scared that.....well many things are in my thoughts.

I'm trying to keep calm. Keep calm. I need some time to cool down. I just need it. I need some space to be alone. Or else....I'll go nuts.

....

Just wanna let my emotions come out while writing this post because I'm feeling moody and tension right now that I decided to write.

Haihz.

Oh well, what comes to me, I got to deal with it. I just have to work it out. Study hard for this semester and also that paper which I'll be taking next semester.

-lu yin-

Results Coming

It's around 9 hours away from the Final Exam results.

I nervous like everyone else I know.

I feel as if my legs are shaking.

I've been keep telling myself that everything's going to be alright.

I cross my fingers and said to myself "have faith".

Facebook status that my friends put about the Final Exam results coming.

Aiyaya....

We all are scared and nervous about the results. Yet, we still faced it.

I can say is that we tried our best in the final exams.

Good luck to everyone on getting good results.

-lu yin-

TTNite Gang

Left to Right: Meng Yew - Bryan - Angie - Me - Jeff - Kelvin - Siok Cheng - Carmen - Hong Bin

I know this picture is last semester (few months back). But still...

This is taken few days before the actual day of TTnite 09.

Took together with the TTnite ex-committee (TTnite 08).

The times that we talk, crap, laugh, and the crazy things that I could remember. Aikz. Miss you guys.

-lu yin-

Pitch Presentation Group

Left to Right: Li May - Me - Owen - Esther - Sim Hui - Vingie - Ah Ting - Stephanie

I present to you...Ultimate Entertainment Agency (UEA)... Hahaha

Thank you guys for guiding me when planning this presentation and proposal. I really learn a lot from you guys especially the ideas that you guys propose.

Everyday, we come to the library discussion room to discuss and give out ideas on our proposal and presentation.

Although there are a few mistakes for both proposal and presentation, but we worked it out well. We did our best. Either our idea approve or not, we did our best. We are still working with others and together as a team.

Thanks. Arigatou.

Let's work our very best for the upcoming event in December. ^ ^

-lu yin-

Happy Deepavali 2009

After the stroke of midnight, I hear fireworks. Very loud. Looking out at the balcony. Fireworks at the city. Yes, it's loud and smoke come out. But. Can see the lights which are so beautiful.

That is the sign of the celebration of light. Deepavali. So to all my friends especially Indians.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI.

-lu yin-

Nervous

You know in some situations maybe something big gonna happen, maybe you wanna tell someone about something, or maybe the big thing that you're handling it's gonna come in time.

Well, of course all of us are nervous. Me, I'm nervous about the pitch presentation. Presentations, of course, people get nervous plus with or the small signals and body movement that we sometimes could see what it means from our point of view. I mean not overreacting that kind of way.

Sometimes, we tend be nervous on some situations.

I'm gonna be nervous this whole semester even though I can't wait to get started. There's always gonna be something. I'm nervous when like some meetings or events is getting closer. Getting prepare to say and take action. Nervous when I wanna say something that I thought about it in my mind.

We are nervous as these kinds of situations especially others like family, relationship, studies, financial....you name it. Nervous that something is not right and conflicts happen. Nervous that you'll be in trouble if you do something. Nervous that we fail at few or some subjects of the final exam. Nervous about the marks too.

Nervous. A feeling in both mind and body. It's like just come to you when you have doubts and worries. That's normal. If you don't have, then it's like a problem-free zone. I did not say no problems is a bad thing. But still. It's just come naturally that problems arise from situations that we are handling.

So, even though we are nervous, even though we have doubts, worries, and problems. Like I say again. Deal with it. There's no escape.

In 12 hours time, I'm gonna be at the lecture hall. Groups are getting ready for the pitch presentation. Double check everything from slide shows to prep for presentation. Well, wish them all the best and good luck.

Remember, when nervous, just calm down and deal with it. Then, things will go smoothly.

-lu yin-

Random Thoughts in My Head

Just wanna feel like type out something which is random thoughts in my head.

It's been 2 weeks after my camera was sent for service. At the moment, I call and call to check whether my camera is okay or not. Hope it's fine. Don't wanna spend money again on the camera. If not, then no choice already.

Pitch presentation is coming on Friday. A lil' bit nervous. During the meeting, at least come up with ideas. Hopefully, this Friday will go well.

Thesis on Chapter 1 and 2 almost done. Just need to do a few kinks.

For all this time in this semester, I'm quite relaxed. Okay, maybe too relax because still in the holiday and traveling mood. Still thinking that it's semester break. Well, it's just week 2. Started only for this semester. Week 3 the results will be coming out. Honestly, I'm a lil' bit nervous but still gotta see the results and know it. I'm gonna get good results. *cross fingers

This semester is gonna be my last one. Gotta enjoy every single seconds in this semester before going to UK.

Well, time to get myself ready to go out and have discussion with my group members for the pitch presentation.

Ciao.

-lu yin-

"Be Careful What You Wish For" and "Me & Mr Darcy"

During my trip in GuiLin, I finish reading these books. These books are written by Alexandra Potter. Relaxing while I was at the hotel room in nice, big and comfortable bed including a good reading with a nice cup of warm tea before going to bed.

The story is about a girl name Emily Albright who has it enough with men in the reality. She prefers Mr Darcy from the Pride and Prejudice. While her best friend goes to Mexico, she went to London to enjoy a tour of Jane Austen country. She met up with a bad temper guy, Spike who is a journalist. This guy wants to know why women would prefer Mr Darcy to date. Sometimes, she encounters her dream guy which is Mr Darcy himself. This book gives a sense of mixture of fantasy and reality that we tried to compare between them. Emily is quite funny while Spike is nice even though he is quite rough. Mr Darcy is a total gentleman, mystery and romantic. Makes me go and read Pride and Prejudice after this book due to curiosity. I say this book is quite good for a chick lit where one person can cuddle herself with a book and read it while having a warm drink. Don't you think so?

Rating: 8/10

You know sometimes we wanna wish something out from our minds and sometimes it may come true but sometimes end up not in a good way that brings us to realize something in the end. That is why we have to be careful what we wish for. Well, Heather always wish for things that she ever wanted. One day, she buy some heathers from a gypsy that bring her wishes come true. She got her dream guy, a housemate, and so on that makes her day better. But is she happy with all these things that she wanted. This shows that no matter what we wish for it sometimes either be a good thing or a bad thing. If we wanna get what we want, might as well don't wait for the sky to drop down. We want to achieve, we gotta take action. It will not magically come right at you. Happiness. If we wanna attain happiness, we must achieve things on our own. Don't wait for others to give you happiness. Achieve it yourself with commitment, patience, wisdom, faith, and passion.

Rating: 8/10

-lu yin-

GuiLin Day 5

The whole day is mostly seeing the scenic places including the Silver Cave. So, the first place that we went was Yang Shuo River.

This is Melissa. Beijing gal. Join us on the whole trip. Look like Gong Li right? She very very tall. Higher than my brother, Joon. XD

It's real pelican. Not fake.

The streets near Yang Shuo River.

Next place is the Silver Cave.

The last scenic place is one of the oldest tree.

The guy at the bottom row is Melissa's boyfriend, Dominique (Malaysian and working in America). They are such an adorable couple.

At night, it's time to see pelicans go fishing.

Reached to the shore and the pelicans were flapping their wings after their swim.

Went to Western Street where most of the tourists come there to shop, clubbing, eating etc. However, the things they sell are expensive. T T

That's the end of Day 5. Coming soon is the 2nd last day of the trip.

-lu yin-

Tired But Happy

Yesterday, during the whole afternoon, the Academy R people including me helped out for the Tadika Seri Soka gathering. The guys help with the Stage Management Group while the girls help the kindergarten teachers with the students. They are so cute and adorable. These two are the pictures of after helping out the whole afternoon.

Although it is a tiring day for us, but at least we had fun and learn something from it especially commitment and patience.

Gambateh Academy R. Let's go on with every single thing that we may encounter.

Last thing to say.

Sometimes we have doubts and worries but we still gotta deal with them. It's true. There's no such thing as no problems in life. Problems even though bring us more tension, we have to go through with it and how to fix it. That applies in our daily life.

-lu yin-

The Start of Something New

Well. The new semester start already.

Just got to know about the fees to go LJMU. I mean the price might raise quite a lot. I thank my parents for giving me the support for me to further studies. Even the time my parents talks about it when having a conversation with them.

Pitch presentation for PR campaign is next Friday. I mean all of a sudden. One week to prepare both presentation and proposal. Coursework mark higher than the final exam mark.

Writing strategy. Ok ok only. It's just have to write out something. 5 of them in this semester.

Thesis also need to deal with it. Having a hard time with the literature review even though found the journals already.

Of all these. I decided to pull out from Encore and concentrate on my studies and Gakkai activities. Even the YWD back at PJ, I gotta do something about it.

Well, at the beginning, look easy. However, as time goes by, things will be pretty rough and more busy than I could imagine.

Those things are not gonna tumble me down. I'm going to do my very best until the end.

Like the title say "start of something new". There's always something new that we start from and learn from it. As we learn, we understand and deal with it. Also, using them for other purposes in the near future. Look forward and never look back.

-lu yin-

GuiLin Day 4

It was a fun time in the morning at the Merryland Theme Park reminds me Disneyland where I've been to Paris the last time when I was a teenager. This theme park including the resort is run by one of the well-known Taiwan company.

Cute farm animals at the park.

I bought 2 soft toys from that place. Cheap nia. Too bad only have fun there for only 2 hours because after that have to go to the next destination.

Went over to Yang Shuo. Aikz wish I could have enough time to have fun at the Merryland Theme Park. I feel like a small kid again. XD

In the middle of the journey, stop by at ShangriLa where get to know different minorities.

Ladies doing some knitting and sewing

A whole lot of rice wine

Did buy some souvenirs.

Reached the hotel. Had dinner. Went to watch the cultural performance "Impression of Liu San Jie". Some of you might know the movie "LiuSanJie" which is produced by Zhang Yi Mou. This performance is performed by the local villagers and fishermen.

The stage is actually at the big lake. I mean open space. Meaning performance on water.

Cute little girls singing

That's the end of the day.

Day 5 coming soon.

-lu yin-